I know its been a while, but I've been pretty busy with midterms and all. Anywho, I think I have a crush on my best friend. Usually I would deny this, but I'm getting to the point in my life where I need to be true to myself. It all started after I told him what I did and he didn't run away, also he just was supportive through everything. So anyways I came to the conclusion about liking him because I decided not to date anyone...ANYONE and that's big for me. Then I won't even look at any other guys. One of my friends set me up on a blind date, and the guy was cute, smart, had a decent job and was looking to achieve more in his life. He was a bit too touchy feely but nothing else was wrong with him. I just wasn't feeling him. I don't know what it was about but I didn't want him to kiss me or even half be near me. Another one of my friends tried to set me up with a teacher, I wasn't feeling him either. So I'm just gonna lay low for a while to decide if I should or shouldn't persue this friendship into a potential relationship.

In a bit of a rut

So I don't know why I've been in a little funk lately, but I just can't seem to shake it. It started about two Thursdays ago and has been going down ever since. Even a mini-makeover and my crazy fun-loving roommates can't get me out of this. I know that call that first Thursday got me kinda shaken, and the one I had to make on Monday got me even deeper. But from there I managed to stay afloat. Then the Crazy Frat definitely kept pulling my mood down by constantly riding my back. But now that he's gone my mood has improved drastically. But because of him I can't give The Teacher the attention that I would like. Then my mom wasn't feeling well and The Sisters made it seem as if she were on her deathbed and so I rushed home to see her. Fortunately she wasn't dying but she wasn't getting better. So I've been worried about her too.

But clearly I need to let that baggage go because this rut has effected my day. I didn't go to class or either of my jobs...but I did manage to blog about my problem and showcase my mini makeover to .2 percent of the campus. Well I'm about to find something fun and maybe constructive to do before the day is over, to make it seem like I really did something of importance.